Food, Glorious Food

Okay, I just have to tell you... I just got back from my first meal of the day.  That's right, I didn't eat until 4:00 this afternoon.  You don't have to tell me it's unhealthy - though someone, I'm sure, will - lying in bed for 2 hours nearly comatose as all my energy evaporated was warning sign enough.

I've mentioned it before, but not in its own context - I have a hard time with diet.  I don't know that I was ever a "sensible" eater, but for a long time I didn't really worry about food.  I was thin by metabolism, and pretty much everything just went through me.  I was (and really still am) often rarely hungry, and I had to remind myself to eat.  If I didn't, I would get depressed and cranky.  It got to the point where I knew if I was miserable, it probably meant eat something.

But in the last 5 years or so, everything's just been haywire - I eat too much, I gained like 20 pounds, and I've had a hard time getting it off - except when I started Atkins, which as I say, I found worked like a charm, except for the art where I got bored.  I like the food at the 'bucks, but it's hard to make healthy choices there... and anyway, what do I know about healthy choices?  I'm not sure I am even really in favor of them. A lot of them - like even the recent trans-fats brouhaha - feel faddish and trendy, not based on actual health needs.

The truth is, I plan to go back on Atkins, soon - but in order to do that - due to this major mood swing you get during induction - I need my life to more settled than it is right now. Whether I start the gyn before that, or in tandem, I'm still debating.

So here I sit, a little fat, full, mildly content, able to put sentences together, finally, wondering, yet again, what to do. I'm not, really, asking for suggestions.  Observations, maybe. And no, I'm not going on Weight Watchers. No matter what you say.

Comments

[Jennifer]

I'll support whatever you do but I don't have mood swings on Weight Watchers. :)

[jinbaltimore]

go green